Monday, September 14, 2009

Yet another setback......

I am keeping this short because it is getting too difficult to keep rehashing "the latest" to family and friends especially when the latest is another setback. Mia was put back on the ventilator this morning. Once again I kissed my little girl with tears streaming down my face as I left her room for her to go through intubation once again. She had an ultrasound of her diaphragm(sp? too exhausted to look it up) to see if the nerve was injured during surgery. If this is the case they may need to go in and repair it and are also considering placing the pacemaker at the same time. Another possible scenario it that since her body was so malnourished that she is having a difficult time recovering. For now the plan is to keep her on the ventilator for the next couple of days to allow her body to recover.

Please continue to lift us up in prayer. I am so physically and emotionally exhausted. I desperately want some good news and I am struggling why my daughter has had to endure so much in her short life. I am trying to trust in God's plan but right now it is difficult. I am not going to lie, as my daughter has struggled my faith has also. I know I cannot lean on my own understanding but I have to trust in Him.

16 comments:

Kim K. said...

I'm so sorry, Melinda. Prayers continue flowing in West Michigan to your sweet Mia.

Sue said...

Melinda, I am devistated to read your blog, I am crying for Mia, how unfair to this sweet little baby. I pray for the best, please try and stay strong, she needs you more now than ever.
Sue

Nicole said...

Melinda,

I'm a friend of Kim's, and she put a link to your blog on her blog... just wanted to send my prayers your way.

blessings,
Nicole

TanyaLea said...

My heart is aching for all of you. There is no understanding, so that makes it really hard. We will continue to faithfully life all of you, and especially sweet Mia up in prayer. <><

Hang in there,
~Tanya

Sarah said...

Praying hard for you all Melinda. So sorry to hear it is a struggle right now. Stay strong and focused.

Love,
Sarah

Wendy said...

Lifting Mia up as well as you guys...hang in there Melinda, you KNOW how good God is.

Carey and Norman said...

Sweet Melinda, I'm so sorry to hear about your setback with Miss Mia. My heart is with you as I can only imagine the emotions you must be experiencing. We will absolutely lift you up in prayers. Even though we just found your blog through the yahoo China group, we feel very connected to you as we also are adopting a child with a congenital heart defect. I know that God challenges us at times and we don't always know why, but he will be with you through each struggle and setback. Just remember to rely on Him for all your needs (physical and emotional). He will not leave you during your time of need.

My prayers are with you and Miss Mia!

Courtney said...

I just found your site through Kim K. I will keep your little one in my thoughts and prayers. May God watch over you during this time.

Heather said...

Continuing to lift Sweet Mia's name up in prayer.

Aaron and Erica said...

Hi Melinda,

I don't remember how I found your blog and I don't believe I have commented before...but tonight I had to let you know that prayers are being said for your family here in Alabama. I'm so sorry for all of the setbacks in Mia's recovery. I know you probably feel defeated at this point. Do not give up hope though, His mercies are new every morning. He will never leave you or forsake you.

In Him,

Erica
(mom to a little one with CHD who had surgery in March)

Wife of the Pres. said...

He tells us we are made perfect in our weakness. You say you are struggling in your faith, but you are leaning on Him. I say you are learning (as I did this time last year) that my definition of faith had always been built on things going well. We had never had sick children, and then all of a sudden I had one fighting the fight of her life. And I realized Hebrews 11:1 had taken on a whole new meaning. I realized too I was truly living out the verse that God is able to do the impossible.

Hang in there Melinda. I know He is saying, "Well done, well done, my daughter." Love and Prayers and I'd come and give you a big hug and cry with you if I was close by. Just let Mia rest as the doctors say and do let all of us keeping up by the blog know when you need us to lift your arms up even higher b/c you can't hold them up anymore. We're here.

Shannon said...

Melinda,
Oh how I wish that I lived closer. I am praying that the Lord will allow you to feel His arms wrapped tightly around you. That you will have strength to continue to walk this and that Mia will recover with miraculous strength. Thank you for posting. I know how draining that can be when things are hard.
Hugs & Prayers to you.

Lisa said...

My husband and I are in the process of adopting a 12-year-old girl from China who had this same surgery when she was 2. She is now living a normal, healthy life with a healthy heart. I will be praying for a healthy heart for your Mia.

When the pain gets to be too much, give it to God and He will carry the burden for you.

Rebecca said...

Praying that you feel the strength, peace and healing of our loving Father as he carries you and your family right now.

Valerie and Jeff said...

Melinda, I'm one of those people who will pray for you and yet you do not know. I prayed so often for Georgia during her adoption process and travel and surgery and did not know her or her family either and yet it brought me so close to God knowing that He does and He knows the situation you are facing (as he knew Georgia's) and how tired and exhausted you all must feel!

I am not an adoptive parent (yet although I'd love to be if I have the strength) and my children are healthy (thank you God!) so I can only imagine how God is growing and stretching you and your faith right now. In conversation with my boys the other day they asked if we were going to adopt (they didn't say it so eloquantly unfortunately but asked if we were going to go and get one of those kids ... being boys I think their heart is in the right place but they don't have the words to express it in a more heartful way ...) but beyond this the words out of my mouth flowed not so much from my brain as from somewhere beyond me as I heard words that I needed to hear as well. "Families who are called to adopt are very special families who God has called to that position." God has called you to this. He does not call the equipped, he equips those He calls. When you are most tired and weary give your burden to God. He will bring you rest and understanding. When you are angry, leave it at God's feet. When you are frustrated, know that God is still with you. He will never leave you! Even if you feel distant from Him.

I will pray for you and your family ... for Mia and for an upswing in her recovery! I write this with tears feeling the pain of a Momma for her child. I want all stories to be such bliss and only happiness, but God has a different journey for all of us and only He understands the reasons why.

Praying Mia strength and recovery!
Blessings,
Valerie

The Richerts said...

The Ultimate Physician has your sweet little Mia and your entire family in His hands during every step of this painful journey. Praying for you and the hospital staff in California!
Barbara