Tuesday, September 08, 2009

In surgery

We arrived at the hospital at 5:45am and as soon as we went back into the preop room Mia started to cry immediately. After about a half hour she feel asleep in my arms. The surgeon came in and started explaining the surgery procedure to us and started talking about strokes, catheters, and death rates. He also said this is a high risk surgery. It was strange because part of what he was saying seemed to be somewhat related to Mia and I just thought he was talking in medical terms. I thought I am going to let him talk and then ask my questions. Finally Dan said something(I don't even remember) and the surgeon said "Oh I am thinking of tommorow's case which is a Fontan surgery." I was so upset at this point and breathed a sigh of relief as he started to explain Mia's surgery.

Then I was told I would not be able to go back into the operating room as originally planned. With this news I broke down in tears. The child life specialist tried to talk to the doctor but he was adament that I could not be there in case of an emergency. They wheeled Mia and I back to the doors of the operating room. I walked away from the doors with her and whispered in her ear that God loved her and that I was praying His protection over her. I kissed her and told her I loved her and handed her off. It was one of the most difficult things I have ever done.

3 comments:

Shannon said...

Oh Melinda....
Praise God that He has begun to heal her heart! That moment of handing her off is one you will never forget. We wound up not being able to go back either. I am praying for God's peace over you!!!!

Carey and Norman said...

So sorry to hear that you were unable to go into the operation room with Mia. I know as a mother that this must have been hard. Know that God is with her each moment and that she knows how much you love her and wanted to be there with her!

Thinking of you and praying for Mia and your family!!

Aaron and Erica said...

I've been praying for your family today. What an emotional day this is...I remember it so clearly. I'm praying that you will feel God's peace that passes all understanding in the coming days.